| I Promise I'm Not Okay. |
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So ok, The story of christina's life..its crazy, emotional and REDICULOUS!
well, me and matt, as you know broke up. I think I might have made the biggest mistake of my life. Even though I dont have feeling for matt, he is the sweetest guy in the whole world and always aims to make me feel like a princess. I have honestly never been treated with that much respect. I broke up with matt because I met spencer. He is amazing also. I know it was really shallow of me to break matt's heart, not only break it for another guy, but one of his friends. Matt doesnt know that this is why we broke up, i told i needed to figure thing's out. he had already said that we needed to maybe slow down and go back to just dating because we were hanging out all the time, and we didnt want to get sick of eachother. I know without a doubt in my mind that matt wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I dont feel the same way. I know i want to be with spencer, and i hnestly thought we were going to be together he told me we were. and i couldnt have been happier. but lately like last night for example i was on the phone with Matt, he was hanging out with spencer and all of our homeboys, well there was an exception to that there was 3 girls there to, one of which was Justine, no problem yes shes GORGEOUS and works at HOOTERS, but shes with Derek and they are completely in love so im not worried about her, shes a sweetheart. But Misty and Amanda were there. well Misty and Spencer have some-what of a past well i sneekily asked matt what spencer was doing, he said "hanging all over misty, i think hes really into her" i just bursted into tears. and i dont know why. i dont let myself get head over heels for a guy i havent in a very long time. and now im letting myself fall for spencer and very unreliable person. i refuse to be 2nd best..i want to be the guys #1 and if that makes me sound like a stuck up bitch then well im sorry kiss my friggin ass. and i deserve the best because im the best. Just kidding. but seriously i do expect to be treated like a lady, no matter how corny that sounds. and Spencer did all of that up until latley he hasnt been calling as much and forgets to kall when he says he will. and just TWO nights ago he told me that he wanted to be with just me. and as soon as he gets his car hes going to be with me everyday. how can you say that to somebody and then 2 days later go off and hangout with a girl that you have a serious past with? i dont understand. On top of all that drama, my home life is just getting worse. i feel as though i cant turn to my mom anymore shes getting really shady. i love her with all my heart but i cant handle it. when i turn 17 im moving in with some friends. im going to keep going to school and im going to graduate and im going to go to college and im going to be a nurse.AND im going to do it all on my own. because i know that i can. i dont need anybodys help, its my goals therefore its my responsibility to obtain them. My mom bows down to steve and my dad has his head so far up his own ass its unreal. yea i understand that i should have a curfew..but 11:30? i mean come on..i have given them NO reason to doubt what im doing when im not home and im very responsible yea sometimes i forget to do the dishes or do my laundry but when im told to do something i do it. and i do it right. my grammie is forcing me to do summer work, like reading all these books and junk and then doing worksheets, i understand that she wants me to succeed but in all actuality this is really just her giving herself one more life to control because she cant control her own with her and her prosiac poppin self. no im not downing anti-depressent users because hey..i have no room to talk. BUT she needs to figure her life out before she goes and tells me what to do with mine. she HAD a daughter..im her GRAND-daughter so i really wish she would treat me like one. well im going to go and take a nap because all this drama is giving me a migraine.
-christina
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| Like a drifter I was born to walk alone, going down the only road Ive ever known.. |
[01 Jul 2005|03:39pm] |
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HEY all!
oh goodness sooo much has been going on.. im going to start off with the past few weeks.
well the other weekend Matt, Dylan, David and I all went to Decator and bought a TON of fire works..
its was really fun i got to hang out with some really awesome "punk rockers" or whatever..they were really sweet.
Dylan and David did some Unloading for the guys working ( Davids friends ) so that we could get alot of free fireworks..its was soo freekin hott so i sat in the car and jammed! haha! then we went really far into the country and were like shooting off fireworks out of matt's car it was really fun! but we were safe about it!
then later that night we stopped by my moms cuz i needed her advice about somethings..and then me and matt went to brian's apartment and chilled with all of them for like 30 45 minutes and then we went back to my house and sat outside and talked for awhile..we decided to just be friends because we really rushed into a relationship. and he told me that he was in love with me and was going to wait for me forever. which really scares me. but whatever. his choice.
we are still really good friends tho like we still hangout alot..i think we are hanging out tonight if i dont hang out with spencer and Hoey..i mean joey..lol! me and spencer are starting to get really close i really missed him and i didnt realize that i had until i started talking to him again. im like really falling into LIKE with him!! haha! and im pretty sure he feels the same. but for now im just going to do the "dating" thing im not going to get serious with anyone. cuz im only 16 once and summer isnt that long. ya know?!?
BUT YEA! me and raleigh are stull REALLY close! i love her beyond belief! and me and tailor are getting really close we hung out the other night she stayed the night! it was alot of fun! i havent talked to whitney in a while i should call her and see how she is doing! i miss her pretty lil self!
OK well im going to go get ready for whatever the heck it is that im doing tonight..i really gotta kall and see what im going to do. i really wanna see spencer i havent seen him in a few days. ok ill try to write more often im just a busy gurl!!
LOVE YOU ALL SO BIG!!
*stina
OH and just an update..me and chelsea are not really on talking terms anymore..i dont really know wut happened..but its just whatever..shes moving to palistine anyways..lol
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| drop your deposit off here please. |
[16 Jun 2005|03:16pm] |
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ok so, its hotter then hell outside and my face is so burned..but the rest of me is tan. thank god..i hate sun burns. OUCH!
i had an awful dream last night consisting of many people that i cant stand unfortuantly i wanst killing them, i was making up with them.
ugh.
i hate him.
my dad is taking me to some brain/ADD/ADHD doctor.
what a great way to encourage your child that they arnt stupid.
i know that he means well and just wants to help me but good god, i dont need my head tested. i think im going to have to start seeing a shrink again because these people are making me nuts, seriously can anyone say HAIR DYE?! because im getting gray hair from all the stress, and nobody really listens, i know that my parents want to help but honestly i dont need help i need them to let me be.
alright enuff bitchen on to the good stuff,
matt, ahh hes perfect, just about. we are going out friday night, dunno wut we are doing yet but oh well we ALWAYS have muchos fun. no joey tonight tho me and matt needed a break from our 3rd boyfriend. haha thats what we kall him because hes ALWAYS with us. i think we are going to hang out with some of our other friends tonight tho. i hung out with the other joey f last night from bville. hes really funny. ok well this is gay im leaving.
KRISTENA MARIE.
i like the way that looks instead of christina
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[03 Jun 2005|04:32pm] |
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ok so its summer and Im extremely excited!!!
SO FAR THIS SUMMER:
i have..
*gone out on my like first really official date date thing with matt we went to his house hung out with his family for a little while then he took me to see Monster N Law..which was really sweet cuz he knew i had really been wanting to see it. then we went back to his house for a few minutes then he brought me home.
*I've been hanging out with joey, adam sheaffer, JT, sometimes Logan and matt and rick a hole lot. i hung out with tailor and i think im staying the night with her sat.
*went to Haltom's graduating to see matt graduate last sunday then we went to his house i met alot of his friends, omg they are all hott, but im not allowed to say that cuz ya.. lol then we went to eat then i went home
* went swimming with matt and rick at ricks then went to JT and cole's appartment because ricks pool was FREEZING and matt needed to pick up a brake light for his truck.
*went to ricks and played pool alot.
*and basically just a BUNCH of hanging out @ Joey's i havent really been home alot. which has been extremley nice because i was stuck at home when i was in SRC. which isnt really spoken of because thats a very bad and painful expirience for christina.k so NEW SUBJECT..haha.
omg im loosing my SEXY tan because i havent been tanning in 2 weeks..lol actually i think im just paraniod. im trying to get a job because yea, i think i need to start paying for my own things considering my parents dont give me money for anything anymore anyways.
I'm confused with this whole matt thing tho. like we are going out or w/e but like its summer and im not sure if i want a boyfriend but matt treats me like a freeking princess and ive never really had a guy treat me SOOO great like he does. so i think im going to keep him around HAHA! just kidding i like having him around. I talked to HESEBECK the other day his truck still doesnt work so we havent been able to hang out..kinda sad. and i havent talked to Mr. Kelley in several days. i guess his summer is full already.
UM..ya so i dont really have anything else improtant going on..im so happy its summer tho..
DONT YOU WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS HOTT LIKE ME?!?
DONT YOU WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS A FREEK LIKE ME?!?
~Christina Marie~
hey..lets keep it friendly!
SURGEON GENERAL'S WARNING: Cigarette Smoke Contians Carbon Monoxide.
AND YOU WILL DIE!!
so save the future kidos ..and try your hardest to not smoke or do not continue your habbit.
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| I Dont Need Permission... |
[28 Jan 2005|05:35pm] |
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**YoO cAnT TeLL mE wHuT tA dO!!!**
have not written in this nigg in forever. but yea anywayz, DOOD im SO freakin passing all my classes with only one FN C!! how pimp shit is that?!?!
OK anywayz...i dont know what to write about..
i FREAKIN love chel*c!!
and i FLIPPIN love ral*e
O KKK!!
KKK O!!
CUZZZZZ'...
StInA
ChEl*C
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AlLiSoN?!?!?!?
had ta do it again..!!!!
I <3 A BOY!!! he is the best!! ahhh ** heaven**
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| you follow me around in my head.. |
[17 Oct 2004|07:58pm] |
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....and i want you out....
this weekend was wierd.
i saw malcolm & Ed.
old memories came bak for both me & whit.
im very confused.in good and bad ways.
i cant wait till next friday.
<3 chrissy.
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[11 Oct 2004|04:00pm] |
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.....SO insecure.....
k so im on the fone with whit, and we are going to start designing our own clothes so the stupid hoes cant copy us! lol! yea..today sucked, cuz im like sick and i sound like a boy. lol everyone was laughin at me!! but dan said he'd bring me soup..and he didnt?!? lol its ok i forgive him!! hehe!! so anyways..
yea, im in bcis now..i sit next to victor. its kool! hes funny! we sit there and make fun of mrs.jennings..she has her panties in a TIGHT twist. lol i have C lunch.its fun. kenny and lauren and victor and a bunch of other people are in there. i like it!! and then i still have GAY spanish but vic and anthony are in there so its kool! i think me and anthony are getting closer..but idk..im not gonna get into that b/c thats emotional. lol.
ok well, moving on..ah i duno..k i have to pee..so im gonna go!!!
.christina.
me and whitney joined the ping pong club!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KIK A!!!!
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[08 Oct 2004|04:35pm] |
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..................let's just be friend's.......................
W/ benefits?
...never thought id ever be able to say this..but im cutting out all the Emotional Ties in a certain "relationship/friendship" kinda of thing i have going on with someone..b/c i honestly cant take the hurt, and i know that is exactly wut would happen, i mean it already has once before..so im going to sit bak and let w/e happens, happen b/c im SO over it. ( ok im frontin a lil bit..) friends with benefits..could that really work..and be ok? like and not be wierd?....
lauren just left..anthony, kenny and victor came over for a lil bit. it was wierd. anyways..
im really tired..and im upset about sum stuff so i think im just going to go bak to sleep or watch a movie. yea..bye.
.christina marie.
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| this is the end of running away & keeping it in... |
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.................FrOm ThE hEaD Iz WhErE i BlEeD..................
hum, well i just woke up. im very tired b/c peoples kept kalling me all last night..ugh. i hate that b/c im stupid and forget to turn my fone off all the time. ugh. but anyways, today i have to clean my madre's house..then we have to go out and get some stuff. and take clayton to his FB practice around 5:30..then we are going to pick up lauren. then go back and get clayton. AND back to Haltom we go!!!!! me and lauren were going to go to guy's b/c him and jeff were having people over, but guy decided to up and leave to CanCun. ( i should have gone. ) so, there goes our plans..now we have to find something else to do...?!?but remember people..our curfew is 11:30-12:00 am so get us bak to haltom between those times!!! k thanx! hehe! lets see...ill re-cap my last couple of days for ya! spent last weekend with lauren. hung out with Big.D and Anthony and Kenny. then lauren spent the night with me tuesday night, we rented Passion of The Christ..we couldnt sit still long enuff to watch it..b/c anthony and kenny watched it with us..and yea. thats a movie that you DEF. have to be alone to watch..b/c you have to WAY concentrate. then they left, and lauren and i woke up around 6 and laur had to leave at 7..PoOP. hehe! but so then i went back to sleep when she left.. and i slept for like 45 min at a time ..b/c some people would stop by ..hang out..then leave then more people would come over..so whenever there wasnt people stopping buy to say hello..i slept!!( dont worry..nobody came in the house! ) lol..then talked to laur on the telley alot! now its thursday..and yea..that means i have to clean...YUCKKKKK!!! but oh well its worth it cuz my BESTIST FREEKIN FRIEND!!! is gonna come ova!! hell yea!!! but our parents are not letting us see eachother this weekend..b/c we spend too much time together..plus laur'e madre is going out of town and laur has to stay home..with NO FRIENDS!! humph. lol. well ill call her!!..alrighty im done talking about this part of mah life niggaz!
............I wAnA sCrEaM TiLL' i FaInT...............
ok, GAWD. christina is confused! like one minute i know where i want to be in my life..and how i want to live it. and the next im all..what do i do?!?!? its so odd. like boys are totally out of the picture right now b/c they just complicate things..EvEn ThOuGh..I do like one. but we DEF. wont get into that lol!! but yea..i really want to leave keller next year.. and move in with my mom and just START OVER!! but, i dont know..i dont want to leave my friends either. GHAAA i dont know..w/e i guess. ugh..ok this journalage thing is pissin me off. and you people are gay!! hehe jk.
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ok, i just got home from my BESTIST friends house!! LaUrEn!!! we went to church this morning and it hit both of us like it was wierd..i looked at her and she looked at me and we were both like.."i want to get baptised" lol it was CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!! so october 17th we are getting baptised at 10:30 at colleyville baptist. so yea..come see us! anyways..
Friday was ok, me lauren austin and guy went bak to guys house, swam ate pizza then me and lauren left. lol , after we are all og guys food!! ( i know im fat!! ) then my mom came and got me and i went bak to her casa! i was gonan go to the game but it got cancelled to sat. so i sat at home and watched TONZ of movies! everyone called me that night i felt soooo loved...but i couldnt hang out cuz it was raining..and thats dangerous..?!?! lol.
saturday was boring until 6 i went to laurens strait from claytons FB game, we went to blockbuster then to wendys ( YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMY ) then we ran, then we got in the hot tub ( dont ask ) then we stayed up talking all night. then today we went to church. then we went out to lunch and then we came home, anthony and kenny and jon and big D came over. anthony and kenny came to see us ( i think ) and the other guys were with laurens retard brother that is wierd. lol. that was ok, then anthony and kenny left for a lil bit, then we all went up to laurens room and i straightened all of the guys hair!! ( so fun! ) then me and lauren ran and walked with kenny and anthony. im so confused about that boy. he is just so...aggrivating! like i duno, he knows i like him and all and yea..we are still cool even tho i just want to like jump on him lol. like i love hanging out with him just cuz i think its funny when he tries to be mean to me. and fails b/c i cant freakin stay mad at him. i have to learn how to stay mad at him. but i duno, im thinkin lauren and kenny need to uh...HoOk Up!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe!! long story so dont ask!
.............ok seriously now..................
im SOOOO lost with myself. thats all i have to say..is that sumtimes i just want to lay down and die.
cuz PEOPLE SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok lata.
.CHRISTINA MARIE.
lauren<3
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[25 Sep 2004|09:14pm] |
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watching warped tour reunion. how lame right? well, my there wasnt anything to do tonight, guy and jeff and all them were just going to the bolands, so i didnt really want to go over there. i love ryan casey and them to death but, i would rather be bored in my house so i can wear my PJ's. lol. ok well i guess ill re-cap my friday night for you..
FRIDAY: 2:30 finally got out of the GAY ASS fucking pep-ralley. then went outside to meet guy. called my g-ma got into a fight with her b/c supposedly im " rude, selfish and incosiderate of other peoples feelings?" no, Im really not, but if i dont like you then hell no i dont have a problem letting you know. OMG. 4th period sucked big balls, anthony was rude to me as usual. i really dont know wut i did? him and jamie broke up again. i felt bad for him at first b/c i thought he really liked her, but now that he was a complete ass to me friday i dont know anymore, w/e with that whole thing. im done trying, seriously, i give up. i dont want to have anything to do with that. like i talked to him on the fone that night but he was still a rude ass. i was gonna help him out with something to. but he wasnt PATIENT. o btw: i got it for you to. but...w/e
Then we went back to guy's house for like 15 min. then i went home, changed and got ready then guy and his sister came and picked me up we went to the car place picked up her car then went to the mall. i got a new cell cover. its cute. we got guy sum new etnies and flip flops. then we went bak to his house around 9 or 10 hung out for a lil bit then i went home areound 11:30 or 12. yea, i had the MAJOR munchies!! (wonder why?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! :P ) so i was up until till like 1 or 2 snacking. lol and watching tv. then around 3 or 4 i passed out. it was a ok night i guess.
........................now saturday.................................
SO i woke up around 8 b/c of the fucking puppy and its ANNOYING ass self. i had the worst headache. well i just kinda layed there in bed until 10..but i was awake..kinda.. then my mom came in there and was like what do you want for breakfast and you need to start getting ready and stuff. i forgot that i had my cousins ROTC picnic thingy ..i told him id go to. yea he goes to haltom. ( im scared. cuz thats where ill be next year. ) but anyways i ate sum cinnamin rolls then i took a shower and did my hair and got ready Ross came and picked me up. we decided to take clay to. then we went to the picnic. we left around 1 or 2 cuz it was really hot. then we went back to my moms. Steve ( the step-father. ) was a dick. but what else is new right? i took a nap. my mom took a nap. clayton watched tv and so did ross. then we got ready again and went to claytons FB game in southlake. we beat them AGAIN cuz they SUCK!! but they souhlake boys are OHHH so hott. :) i was in heaven!! lol. then i came bak here to my dads. BORING. cuz there is NOTHING TO DO!!! ok bye.
.CHRISTINA MARIE.
**you coming back here would only be a waste of both our time.**
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[20 Sep 2004|04:26pm] |
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SO!!! ok, today was totalle BORING!! until 2:30, me guy and austin drove around then they dropped me off. and now im here.
OH...ok do im going to tell you about how much i LOVE my freekin friends now!!
ALXIS!!! BFF!! my love..and lover! hehe
GUY!!! my other bestist friend.
JEFF!!! my PRO motocross lovey!! <3
RYAN!!! charlie i love you!! BOOBIES!!
haha ok well im going to go to chicken express and get me sum muther fukin sweet tea!!!!! YEAYUH!!!
ALRIGHTY!! talk to you losers later!!
haltom cant handle me..just wait and see!! ( what if noone likes me there?!? ) lol i got my cuz to bak me the fuck up tho!! =)
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[08 Sep 2004|07:43pm] |
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ok, so..live is so screwed up right now. you dont even know. nobody knows. i guess, actually i know that this is how life is. eats you up and it just throws you right back out. but i guess this time i thought everything was going to work itself out.but it turns out IM the one trying to work things out again. (and again.) but whatever right? im really sick of keller and all the fucking drama these stupid idiot fucking people cause. its like the pit of hell, it couldnt get much worse. i honestly dont know wut runs through some of these peoples mind. its like they dont give a fuck about their surroundings, or other peoples feelings. its all ME ME ME all the damn time. GET OVER YOURSELF YOU FUCKING IDIOTS. hum, well i feel somewhat better now. ok, im sure you are all wondering about the jamie, anthony, guy and Victor shit right? well, the truth is if i were to explain it to you, i wouldnt know just where to start. its all so confusing, i thought i had him, i thought thats what i wanted, me&him. it was awesome. but for some reason i just keep letting the important people in my life slip right through my fingures, i guess thats what i do, being me i just let the good opportunities and people slip right through me as if i dont even care, but thats not true, i do care. i suppose i will just have to live with the fact that he would prefer a white trash betty. but w/e its kool. im still "looking" for myself. not on such a good road right now, im discovering all the bad in me. not speacifically something i wanted. raleigh and jon broke up..for good this time? only god knows i guess. as long as both of them are happy thats all that really matters right? i know that with the love that they both had for eachother its going to take a while. i just hope neither one of them regret anything done or said. i lvoe them both to much to see either one of them hurt. even though jon couldnt give a rats ass about me. hum.. OK, well, im not sure whatelse to write in this thing about my un-eventful, piece of shit life that god has so volunteraly given me. so im gonna leave. laters.
.christina marie.
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[29 Aug 2004|06:08pm] |
raleigh here:
hey you sexxie sexxie readers of my chrissys journal
back the fuck up, she's MY lady.
ok, im dun
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| MY RALEIGH MADE THE MUSICAL!! |
[20 Aug 2004|03:48pm] |
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well, today was WIERD!! its not kool when raleigh is sick, cuz i miss her during the day! but anyways, me and alexis had so fun in english today! we laughed about EVERYTHING it was so gay! but funny! she is sooo cute! she was like yea..i really want to roll brandon's house..and im like HUH?!? and she was like..roll..you know..toilet paper..and im like OH you mean wrap?! and shes like yea..w/e hehe it was hillarious. well, anyway, im soooo bored and i just got home! i think after this im going to take a nap b/c im really tired. spanish was gay, as usual. but todd Jeffery cracks me up! gotta love em! hum, max and seans game was cancelled. so i wont be going to that tonight. i have to babysit maddie and clay tonight for about an hour. OH FUN! lol only not really. then im going to the races tomorrow. duno how fun that will be..:( but anyways, i guess im going to go take my nap cuz i REALLY dont have anything alse to say. bye.
.christina marie.
Chrissy Tiene UN Aplasta (( OHHH spanish skillz!!! ))
^^ chrissy has a crush!! :o
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WELL, today was a WASTE of my time. i felt like i did nothing. o well. today was the first day of musical tryouts, it was ok i guess. the dance is really cute. o well at least this will give me something to do. something productive anyway. and it gives me and raleigh a chance to spend time together, and maybe just possibly prove to my parents that we arnt just trouble makers. i wish they would just trust me again. i havent done anything wrong in a while. and i need to be a kid again and i cant be. b/c im so scared that they think im a slut. it just hurts. it hurts so bad. and there isnt one damn thing i can do, except sit back and wait, wait for my rents to relize im NOT having sex and im not getting into trouble. sheesh. blah. but w/e i dont care anymore, im so sick of worrying. im just gonna, not worry.HUM, well after tryouts me and raleigh walked to the libary and worked on our projects and stuff. and then todd (p) came up there and sat around with us! and brought me my money that he took frum me!!! lol but it was nice of him to come sit with us and our wierdness, then raleighs mom came and picked us up in her 2 SEATER! talk about cramed. then i walked in the door and todd called, we only talked for a sec tho. but i was suprised he called me. hum. well im also super happy that Joy (his gf) isnt mad at him. i would hate to be the cause of that. but anyways, im going to go b/c this journal thing is getting old. ok, bye.
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[12 Aug 2004|06:25pm] |
ok im writing in here again b/c yea..
sorry for my sarcasim on the i hate you all. but im sure everyone would know i was being sarcastic if they really understood me..guess i got my hopes a little high, thinking youd get my sarcasim. cant a gurl write what she wants.
GUESS NOT.
IM OUT.
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today was the most stressfull day of my effing life. i woke up late. forgot my contacts forgot my belt, im suprised i wasnt running into walls and my pants were at my ankles by the end of the day.then to top it off, i had a test in geometry and it was so fucking hard. i just wanted to lay down and cry. i didnt want to be there. ive been doing sooo good with my writing, since ive decided to put my song lyric writing skills to the test. god, ive got sum good shit. but now im having like a block thing. i cant think straight therefore i cnt write. shit, whats wrong with me? i really like my hair this color, i think ill stick to it. school was the gayest thing ever invented. all my friends suck. except raleigh. i guess it just seems like when i get my life back in order it all gets fucked up again. IT SUX. well, on a less depressing note, my aunt comes home in like a month! im SO excited i could piss all ove myself. haha! me and raleigh went and got jon's and max's garters today! that was a bonding 10-15 minutes!! hehe! it was fun! homecoming should be fun! me and max are going together. but just as friends, i say that so that no body gets the wrong idea.im not ready for a relationship just yet. god im so bored. i want to go to the mall and get a new cell phone cover. i want a clear one so that i can put a pic of me and raleigh on the battery and you can see it! NEAT huh?! i know im ceative. actually erin is. but still. lol ok well, im going to go b/c this is gay and i hate all of you. ok bye!
-christina marie-
If I could make a list
Of my mistakes and regrets
I'd put your name on top
And every line after it
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